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My apologies, I wrote my last entry in irritation at someone (i'll call her lady B) who hasn't changed a bit, and it sometimes gets to me how many lies people can spill out of their mouths, especially when all they claim is innocence when they are the ones always plotting...



I will admit, i have made mistakes. My mistakes were not writing a letter to Lady A while in leaving, to explain my leaving. I have explained as to why, though.

As for the lovely Lady B, my mistake was to not further explain myself as to why I had left, for now, it seems she took it very personally, and there has been tons of miscommunication.

I do not apologize, i have righted those wrongs, i have explained myself more than once. It is the choice then, up to them, if they would hear what i have to say. If not, well, then that is on them, not myself.

However, i bare no grudge against either of them, i am not the type to do so, and i haven't a reason to bare a grudge against Lady A.



I have moved on. I am married to the man that the Lady B had threatened, to keep away from me. I am friends with the man who's wife this lady B trash talked up and down.

I am friends also, with another she knows, as well.



None of them are happy with Lady B. I am not happy with her actions. She could have made better choices in life. I am not one to judge or assume, as she has multiple times.



I will also admit I could be cruel at times, and I have hurt people. But then, those that harm themselves hurt people around them. Some of the people, like Lady B, hurts only the people around her.



This is the reasoning for my last post. With this i will repeat a verse that fits beautifully with what i say... that and it's stuck in my head:



I'm sorry for the demon I've become

You should be sorry for the angel you are not

I apologize for the cruel things that I did

But I dont regret one single word I said....



and to the Lady B for the aftermath, when she talked shit on me....



Could you forgive me if I told you that I cared

Would you be sorry if I swore that I'd be there

Please forgive me for laughing when you fall

I'm so sorry but I never cared at all



So, Lady B, have a good life, and I wish you well.



As for Lady A, I sincerely wish you well and for you to be successful in what you do.

Her virtual expression was priceless! Its her own damned fault, stupid bitch... does she not expect to get burned when playing the fire? HA!

Karma's a bitch, baby, don't let the doorknob catch you in your extremely fat rear on your way out, stop acting a two year old, grow up, take responsibility, and leave me the fuck alone.



I pray,

one day,

she will stop being a hypocrite...,

because her cruel pranks she wont admit

it will get her in a hell of a lot of trouble

until it will do more than double

and she will bitch and whine

your kind of bullshit turning on you is your fine

you stupid bitch you little whore

run away, walk out, if you can, through that door!

you lied, you stole, you fooled

no one anymore will believe anything you pulled

you think they love you,

when in truth they can't stand too

apparently you can't stand yourself either

now THAT, makes me a true believer

that you're not worth my time or energy

the mirror cracks with your face, see

We went to his parents for easter, and discussed further holidays because i wanted to split them up so i could see my little brother on one of those holidays... unfortunately they are all at my step-father's family's house. now i dont mind them, they are loud, obnoxious, but i dont mind. it's more barry and his... he always rubbs those of us on my mothers side the wrong way. at least us kids.

so we were trying to figure, if we could, which one? christmas or thanksgiving? i vote christmas for my family only because they wont mail anything to us and we never know how long til we move to TN, and we could always just spend part of the short christmas vacation up to see his family anyway.

but that's just me.

but easter was nice. we ended up going friday (no driving through the 8 hours of there and back for me because it was very windy and we were driving through canyons and there were curvy hilly roads) but i did get to drive that day after we got there, while we went to hastings so we could watch a movie with the family.

then on saturday his mom let me drive to and from walmart and i made one little mistake while on the road that day. i started to take one left turn a little too fast, i fixed it before there were any real problems turning though. then on sunday i got to drive to hastings and then i drove to and from church. every one says i am doing much better than before i got my learners license. very few and very little (size not quantity) mistakes. and i always fix them before they turn into anything. though other drivers hate me for being such a careful driver (i do the speed limit i dont really go five over). takara is the first car afterall... and way too new.

I just got my certificate today... odd.

anyway, i just got the feeling to walk outside, and so i did, and a man walks up to me with my certificate in hand. what good timing, huh? i knew it wouldn't take two days for an overnight package to travel 8 hours (drive) from here! Instead it arrives 10am the next day. now for my driving/vision test. i'll be good then.

now to just wait for him to respond to any message i send him...where did he go?

Sooo we just got a 2009 Toyota Corolla. We traded his beautiful truck in for it (I actually miss his ford ranger too, believe it or not). Now for the driving part of this...

I am going to do the driving course required of me, and then once when the certificate for that comes in (say, either Saturday or Monday) I can then go on Monday to get an appointment for the driving test. If i pass this, then I will be a licensed driver :)

I honestly can not wait until then, but then again, i've waited four more years than I had too... I suppose a week wont hurt. Night night everyone :)

I will never get a car that has one.... because then that would mean the wiring for it could go wrong and it will keep going off every three minutes waking the neighbors... did i mention that it's been going off now since at least 3am and I got to sleep at 1? and the two nights before that sleep was not happening either?

Usually I dont mind this, but i was in a good habit of getting sleep for six hours and that allowed me to run, but i was tired.

Excedrin became my prescription, as well as tea and coffee. And I have developed allergies. And the nausea. yes I am complaining... .so...back to the car alarm.

it's not our car. but we're the ones responsible for shutting it off until we leave for formation around 5:30am.

I hope things go well with the nutritionist today.. not really in the mood to see the person. stupid car alarm.

I am finally able to get in to college now. I will get my BA in criminal justice, and then go for my teacher's certificate.... *sighs* Finally the FSA went through, i thought it never would. Fortunately next time they need this info, they'll only need the 2010 taxes, which is something i already have.... and we wont lose. honestly they shouldn't need them again since i already sent it to them. we shall see.

can't wait for the play party on the 15th. *grins*